Hywel should have been a second Monmouth, the Monmouth that Gansey had really wanted. It should have been all five of them, metaphorically or literally curled up close the way they needed it. It should have been a barely-touched bedroom for Ronan because he preferred Adam's. Now Ronan was out bonding with nature or something.

Touch was such a loaded thing for Adam. From his parents, from Ronan, neutral touch didn't exist. Except for Noah, who had always heaped quiet and certain affection on all of them.

"I'm not worried about being happy"