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Noah Czerny ([personal profile] iwasmore) wrote2016-02-27 08:56 pm

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For the past two weeks Noah had been alternating between Hywel and Un Chat Gris. He hadn't wanted to go anywhere else, hadn't been able to muster the energy to visit anyone, to do...much of anything. He had no appetite, but it didn't matter, he didn't need to eat. What he didn't understand was why he was still so depressed; he made a choice because he thought it was what he needed, but maybe he was wrong. He kept rolling it over in his mind, again and again, wondering if all he'd done was made a terrible mistake.

He liked the cats at the café, they were a comfort. He'd let Prunam stay with Krem and he missed them both. For now, his shift was over, but he didn't leave just yet. Instead, he gathered a few cats and snuggled with them in one of the corner chairs, petting them until he could feel their rumbling purrs against his chest.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2016-03-02 07:34 pm (UTC)(link)
"I've never interacted with a cat that wasn't Magnus'," Peter admits. The creature is cute, though, and when Peter goes to pat his head, he purrs easily, casts big, blue eyes up at Peter. He smiles a little as he gently scoops the cat up and replaces its weight with his own on the chair. He rests the cat back on his own lap so he can choose where to go, but the fluffy little thing sits in Peter's lap. He instantly understands the appeal of the cat cafe as he strokes his fingers through the soft, white fur.

With his free hand, Peter seizes Noah's gently, carefully, squeezes a bit. "Do you want to talk about it?" Peter understands how this is an important question to ask, and while he is always a person that wants to talk, that's not true for everyone. Classically, Noah has been very open, but people grieve in different ways. The cat on Peter's lap is tuned into Noah's pain, too, and he paws over to nuzzle Noah's hand in Peter's.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2016-03-06 10:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Peter didn't shy away from the touch, especially not when it seemed the truth of it may overwhelm Noah. Talking about stuff like this is messy, but Peter knows how necessary it is. Not talking about such things had put Peter and Jason in a fine mess back home, and while the circumstances were vastly different, heartache had a certain ache that was similar for many. Peter could recognize it in Noah's face, hos voice, the way he kept his hand closed in Peter's. Fuzz bumped Peter's thumb to get him to share the affection. Instead, Peter brought another hand up to gently pet the creature. That other hand was all Noah's for as long as he needed it.

"What happened?" Peter asks, ridging his thumb softly over Noah's knuckles. This boy that has been a ray of sunshine in Peter's life looking so dull and drained, it breaks Peter's heart. It makes him wonder how the other party is doing. It makes him wish he could do something other than sit there with a cat in his lap and listen, silent and wide-eyed.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2016-03-12 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
Noah's hand is eerily cold, but it doesn't seem to deter Peter. It's a kind of cold that suggests nothing can be done about its being there. Noah is a ghost and he's having trouble staying corporeal. When they'd met, Peter had been made aware that this happens. Every day, Peter gets a little more used to strange things every passing day and there's nothing strange about holding a friend's hand in his time of need.

Peter hadn't known about that aspect of their relationship, but most likely that's because it's none of his business. He settles on a gentle, "I'm sorry, Noah." What makes sense for one doesn't always make sense for another, regardless of how much love there is. The sad truth is that love isn't always enough. Peter had walked away from Jason for that very reason before. "You didn't do anything wrong. Neither of you did." It's what Peter had needed to hear at some point in his own travails and there hadn't been anyone to say it. He can only hope that it provides some comfort to Noah.