That's the thing though, Freddie thinks. He had been treated exactly as he'd deserved. Better than, even. After all, how many other kids get the chance to fuck their teachers even once, not to mention countless times? He'd been stupid to think it could ever be more than that. Delusional, really.
And to have it all thrown back into his face years later. He's told himself he'd ended up on top in the end, ruining Gregory's the way he had. But the truth is, he's never felt great about it. It hadn't taken the pain away. The humiliation.
Noah's still holding him, his fingers light through Freddie's hair and it's somehow comforting and suffocating at the same time. He's never told anyone about this and he still hasn't told Noah. Not exactly, anyhow. He's not said the words. But he knows and he'll look at Freddie differently now, will see the used up kid Freddie's been trying so hard to hide. It
"Friends can still fuck," he says finally, pointedly ignoring the break of his voice and how it feels like the wrong thing. His heart his pounding and his skin itches. Noah's close and touching him and Freddie's not some broken fucking teenager. He knows what he wants.
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Date: 2017-05-15 04:21 am (UTC)And to have it all thrown back into his face years later. He's told himself he'd ended up on top in the end, ruining Gregory's the way he had. But the truth is, he's never felt great about it. It hadn't taken the pain away. The humiliation.
Noah's still holding him, his fingers light through Freddie's hair and it's somehow comforting and suffocating at the same time. He's never told anyone about this and he still hasn't told Noah. Not exactly, anyhow. He's not said the words. But he knows and he'll look at Freddie differently now, will see the used up kid Freddie's been trying so hard to hide. It
"Friends can still fuck," he says finally, pointedly ignoring the break of his voice and how it feels like the wrong thing. His heart his pounding and his skin itches. Noah's close and touching him and Freddie's not some broken fucking teenager. He knows what he wants.