for Ronan

[iwasmore]

Thanksgiving had been kind of painful. It wasn't fun when nearly half the people gathered weren't speaking to each other. He and Blue had tried to keep spirits up, but Ronan was brooding and Adam was quiet, and even Gansey seemed pensive, casting worried glances at Ronan and Adam all night. The food he'd brought that Krem had made was amazing, and Noah thoroughly enjoyed eating as much as he could fit in his stomach. The heaviness of the meal, the worrying and the awkwardness, left him tired. When Ronan got up from the couch to go to his room, Noah padded after him.

"Can I come in?" he asked, even though he'd already followed Ronan inside.

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[iwasmore]

Noah shivers a little at the way Ronan's laugh tickles the back of his neck, but he smiles at the sound of it.

"Rude," he says, palm still covering Ronan's hand. He moves it, though, to touch his fingers to Ronan's other hand, the one curled across from his face.

"The turkey's going to put us to sleep," he murmurs, eyes already half-closed.

[thedreamthief]

"Just seems like a weird thing to notice," Ronan explains before letting out another breath as he relaxes further. Noah's never felt warm like this and he's never smelled like anything at all. Funny how everything that should be normal just feels strange anymore.

Strange, but good.

Noah's touching his hand now, fingers curled over Ronan's and he gives a quiet hum, rubbing Noah's stomach idly with his other hand. He can feel Noah's every inhale and he has to fight another smirk and strange concept that is Noah breathing. He settles his hand for a second and then slides it slowly upward, palm pressed flat to Noah's chest. Holds it there, steady against the gentle thump-thump-thump of Noah's heartbeat.

[iwasmore]

"I'll try to remember to wear deodorant," Noah jokes in a quiet voice, like anything louder will ruin the moment.

He and Ronan have snuggled before. He's kept Ronan company during his insomnia, or around his nightmares; but this feels entirely different. Maybe it's because he's never been able to really get warm before, or that he never felt entirely safe or present before the spell. Maybe it's the way Ronan is exploring him for signs of life.

Or maybe it's just because there isn't a reason at all.

It's just them, finding a moment of peace after what's been a devastatingly awful month.

"Sleep," he whispers, giving Ronan's hand a gentle squeeze and closing his own eyes.

[thedreamthief]

Somehow the idea of Noah actually giving a shit about personal hygiene is hilarious and Ronan hides a wider smirk against Noah's curls and rubs his thumb idly back and forth across Noah's sternum.

He doesn't speak though, content to keep his eyes closed, Noah nestled in close.

He can't even hear Adam's voice anymore. Mostly.

Calm for the first time in weeks, Ronan drifts into sleep.